Let’s dive into a little journey together, shall we?
I’m not just any thought leader or industry expert, oh no, I’m an award winning coach, an author, a global keynote speaker, and a proud revolutionary change maker.
You know, the kind of person who gets a kick out of shaking things up and starting conversations that matter.
And guess what? I didn’t even have a traditional American education past the 8th grade! Yup, you heard it right!
My Early Years: A Journey of Discovery
Picture this: a kid moving every six months, bouncing around like a pinball, undiagnosed with AuDHD (that’s Autism and ADHD, for those not in the know).
The traditional school system? Not my jam.
So, I took matters into my own hands.
I was that kid who read everything… yes, even the shampoo bottles in the bathroom (hey, we didn’t have smartphones back then, okay? lol).
At 16, I thought, “Why not enroll in college courses?”
But then, at 17, something magical happened.
After a soul stirring visit to California, I felt a calling that I simply couldn’t ignore.
So, I packed my bags and moved across the country, knowing just one person.
Talk about bold!
Discovering My True Potential
Here’s the kicker: I didn’t even know I was neurodiverse back then.
Sometimes, I wonder if that freedom from labels kept me from buying into limiting beliefs.
And honestly, that’s a huge part of why I’m all about breaking down those boxes today.
I told my dad I was off to California for summer vacation, but deep down, I knew I was going to stay.
Those three months? Pure problem solving magic!
With a sprinkle of creativity and a dash of hustle, I landed a job as a Medicare Eligibility Specialist, despite having zero clue what that even meant!
But you know what? I knew me. I had a knack for thinking outside the box, and I wasn’t afraid to embrace it.
Building My Dream: A Journey of Growth and Learning
Fast forward to turning 18…
I had my third corporate entry level position, an apartment, and a loan to help me get started.
I called my dad the night before my flight home and said, “Don’t worry about picking me up. I got this!”
And just like that, my Boxless Journey began.
Now, here’s the real deal: I never lost that spark of curiosity.
I dove headfirst into the world of physics, teaching myself everything I could.
I became a self taught physics enthusiast, asking questions and digging for answers like a kid hunting for treasure.
From Einstein to Tesla, I absorbed knowledge like a sponge.
And I’m not stopping anytime soon!
The Power of Curiosity Over Conventional Education
I didn’t have the money for traditional schooling, and while I did transfer my Jr. College Credits to Business School in Los Angeles (wouldn’t you know I actually HATED it LOL! Oh, the irony), to this day, I have MANY, MANY certifications but no college degrees.
What I DID have, though, was ENDLESS curiosity and an outside of the box approach.
The Physics of Success: My 18 Year Journey
I’ve spent the last 18 years or so diving deep into Quantum Physics because I felt I intuitively understood it and needed to know if I was right or crazy! (turns out it was BOTH haha).
But I found MIT’s FREE library, along with hundreds of other online free resources, videos, documentaries, and so on.
I read EVERYTHING I could get my hands on by Einstein, Tesla, Pythagoras, etc.
And every time I didn’t understand something, I went to find the answers about that.
I kept going.
And going.
Eighteen years of physics studies and 14 years of corporate leadership coaching later, I’m still asking questions.
I’m on a mission!
Creating a System for a Better Future
I’m here to share the three part system that I designed to allow corporations and small businesses to show up intention led, socially conscious, and sustainable while increasing employee alignment (engagement) and profitability!
These are the tools I created:
The Physics of Success
Abundance Banking
The CELLF Awareness Method of Intentionality
I want to spark a change in the world, and that’s exactly why I started the Boxless Leadership Revolution!
So, who’s with me?! Who’s ready to shake things up and change the world for the better?
YOU Matter: Embrace Your Uniqueness
Here’s the best part: no matter how you’ve become the expert you are today, YOU MATTER.
You are needed in this world!
I came from a background of poverty and struggle, and now I’m here doing what I love.
And guess what? The biggest fan of my newsletter is none other than Dan Goldin, the 9th Chief of NASA! Talk about validation, right?
Breaking Down Barriers: No Boxes, No Labels, No Limits!
So let’s tear down those boxes, my friends!
NO BOXES, NO LABELS, NO LIMITS!
Together, we can create a future that’s as bright as our dreams.
Let’s do this!
Ready to Start Your Own Boxless Journey?
Are you ready to embrace your full potential and break free from the limits holding you back?
Hold your breath for a second… feel it. The next breath will not be the same… In fact, no breath ever will be as same as this one.
Right now, you’re standing at the edge of something extraordinary… the eternal unfolding of the impermanence of this moment
Ichigo Ichie is a Japanese philosophy that means “one time, one meeting,”. It’s not just a concept, it’s a wake up call to seize the day like never before.
These 10 rules are your ticket to a life that pulses with meaning, where every glance, every laugh, and every choice counts.
Let’s dive into this electrifying way of living that’s about to change everything.
10 Rules of Ichigo Ichie:
1. Live Every Moment as If It Is Your Last
Imagine each day as your final chapter.
This rule urges you to savor every breath, every laugh, and every challenge.
By living with intention, you unlock a deeper appreciation for life’s fleeting beauty.
Try starting your morning with a moment of reflection…
Ask yourself, “What can I cherish today?”
This simple habit can shift your perspective and enhance your well being.
Something as simple as this can be the nudge that changes the direction of your whole day.
2. Enjoy the Uniqueness of Each Moment Instead of Postponing Happiness
Why wait for a special occasion to feel joy?
Ichigo Ichie teaches us that happiness lies in the now, whether it’s a quiet coffee break or a spontaneous chat with a friend.
Ditch the habit of delaying gratification and start celebrating the small wins.
Research shows that practicing gratitude boosts mental health, making this rule a powerful tool for a happier you.
3. Celebrate Every Meeting You Have with Your Loved Ones
Every encounter with family or friends is a gift.
This rule encourages you to cherish these connections, turning routine interactions into cherished memories.
Plan a heartfelt dinner or a simple walk, small gestures can strengthen bonds and create lasting joy.
Prioritize quality time to nurture these relationships.
4. Be Patient and Observe as the Moment Unfolds in Front of You
Patience is a virtue, and Ichigo Ichie elevates it to an art form.
Instead of rushing through life, pause and watch moments unfold naturally, like watching a sunset or listening to a loved one’s story.
This mindfulness practice reduces stress and helps you find calm amid chaos.
Next time your wife or husband starts describing what happened at work, instead of pretending you listen while you wander somewhere with your mind… be present.
Cherish their presence, their voice, words… appreciate the uniqueness of that moment.
5. Stop Living in the Past and Focus More on the Present
Let go of yesterday’s regrets and tomorrow’s worries.
This rule invites you to anchor yourself in the present, where life truly happens.
Techniques like journaling or deep breathing can help you release the past and embrace the now, fostering a sense of peace and clarity.
6. Acknowledge Your Flaws and Imperfections as They Are the Very Essence of Life and Nature
Perfection is an illusion, and Ichigo Ichie celebrates imperfection.
Your quirks and mistakes shape your unique journey, much like the weathered beauty of a tree.
Embrace them with kindness, and you’ll find a newfound confidence and authenticity in your daily life.
7. Practice Meditation and Mindfulness to Open Up Your Mind
Meditation is the heartbeat of Ichigo Ichie.
Just 10 minutes a day can clear your mind and heighten your awareness.
Whether through guided sessions or silent reflection, this practice opens you to new perspectives and deepens your connection to the present moment.
8. Be Compassionate Towards Others as It Can Also Help You Improve Your Own Life
Kindness ripples outward and inward.
By supporting others (through a kind word or a helping hand) you cultivate empathy and improve your own happiness.
Studies link compassion to lower stress levels, proving this rule benefits both giver and receiver.
Everything you do to others sooner or later reflects to you.
So be kind and kindness will be reflected unto you.
9. Observe Opportunities and Coincidences So That You Can Receive Messages from the Universe
Life is full of signs if you’re willing to notice.
This rule encourages you to stay open to serendipity.
Unexpected meetings or chance events might carry profound meaning.
Keep a journal of these moments to uncover patterns and insights that guide your path.
10. Look for Moments That Make You and Others Happy Everyday and If You Can’t Find Any, Create Them
Happiness is a choice, and Ichigo Ichie empowers you to seek or create it.
Share a laugh, start a new hobby, or brighten someone’s day with a compliment.
If joy feels elusive, take the initiative… bake cookies for a neighbor or plan a fun outing.
Your actions can spark positivity for all.
It takes one drop to make a wave.
Embrace Ichigo Ichie Today
The 10 Rules of Ichigo Ichie offer a transformative way to live with purpose and presence.
By integrating these principles, you can enhance your mental health, strengthen relationships, and find joy in the everyday.
Start small, pick one rule to practice today and watch your life bloom.
What do you think about this Japanese philosophy? Do you think it’s possible to apply it to the Western World?
A self improvement journey doesn’t mean cutting yourself off from enjoyment, you might find joy in smart, conscious activities.
Online casino games, used intentionally, can contribute to one’s self improvement by way of discipline, planning and mental renewal.
When one thinks of self improvement, one typically thinks of harsh routines or rigid habits.
Personal development, though, can come from leisure, enjoyable times and extensive mental activities.
For some, playing at online casinos is one of the least expected but efficient ways to sharpen skills, develop discipline and relax purposefully.
Foster Focus and Patience with Strategic Play
Central to self improvement is developing the capacity to think more effectively and think twice before coming to conclusions.
Strategic games generally involve players in examining details meticulously and making thoughtful moves.
They reward players who spot patterns, wait for the right moment and play cautiously.
Playing these types of games in the long run will train the mind to be steady under stress and to play one step ahead, skills applicable in daily life.
When you’re in the middle of a high tension project or trying to diffuse a situation, the focus and composure developed by playing games online will be a definite advantage.
For those who wish to feel even more engaged, the live casino games offer the same strategic play with the added touch of human interaction.
Watching the live dealer, reading the body language of the other players and making decisions at specific times feels more thrilling and being patient pays off all the more.
Sharpening Risk Assessment
Quite simply, self improvement sometimes means improving your decision making.
That means learning to balance the scales in terms of choices, weigh consequences and think ahead to outcomes before proceeding.
Online casino games, especially those with odds and wagering, provide an entertaining and effective way to practice in the moment.
Although games of craps or roulette are based on chance, they still require assessments of risk, timing and opportunity for payoff.
The decision making exercise is deciding whether to wager, how much and how to implement the strategy.
By experience, players become wiser risk takers in games and life arenas such as finance, career, or self improvement.
The live casino environment demands immediacy, enhancing the value of the risk and reward assessment process.
Fast thoughts are reinforced during these sessions, never to the detriment of prudent decision making.
Turn Breaks Into Brain Boosters With Casual Play
Productivity experts almost invariably emphasize the importance of taking breaks and for good reason.
Mini mind breaks can recharge the brain, prevent burnout and even boost creativity.
The key is to find activities for breaks that are enjoyable but not overly distracting.
Casino games for home relaxation include the occasional playing of slots or some spins of the roulette wheel.
These games are easy to get started with and easy to exit once one has spent just a couple of minutes on them.
The games offer entertainment, thrill and diversion, getting the brain to turn the corner and return to other activities with renewed focus.
Incorporating the lightning round into the live casino environment brings the break to the next level.
The virtual timeliness, chat availability and active interface create life within the experience and ensure conciseness and simplicity, it’s just right for a short, efficient mental break.
Learning Discipline Through Play
Another basis for individual growth is setting boundaries and respecting them.
That applies to time, habits, money and focus.
Responsible casino play online can enforce those principles for players by requiring players to set boundaries and to stick to them.
Some websites have in built time alerts to set for yourself or deposit restrictions.
Playing by these rules means players learn self regulation techniques off the screen.
It’s simple but effective to practice yourself to play within goals and to resist impulse decisions.
The live games at the casino, played in real time, offer even more opportunities for practice in restraint.
The questions of whether to play, fold and stop are minute but powerful exercises in self control that drill in stronger habits with the passage of time.
Attaining Satisfaction from Skill Acquisition
Few things energize motivation more than getting better.
When players see their play improve over time by winning more games, placing smarter bets, or more effectively grasping the flow of games, it instills confidence.
Mastery is one of the most rewarding features of the self improvement process.
Online gambling games, specifically strategy games, offer the setting to acquire skills in incremental and enjoyable ways.
Finding out how games work, understanding the odds and improving the capacity for decision making instill a positive and enjoyable sense of achievement in players.
Playing at the live casino adds to this experience further.
Dealing with experts and pros creates a competitive and social environment of learning.
Improvement isn’t necessarily about going harder or doing more, it’s also about wising up about how to unwind, acquire skills and derive enjoyment from life’s challenges.
Online casino games give you the unusual opportunity to do the same.
By playing with purpose and restraint, the player makes playtime one additional resource for development.
There are truths so ancient, so entangled with the fabric of our soul, that they cannot be spoken plainly.
They must be felt… breathed in… like stardust through the cracks of forgotten memory.
They arrive not as doctrines or manifestos, but as symbols, rhythms, echoes… spiritual brushstrokes on the canvas of consciousness.
What you are about to experience is a piece of Spiritual Art Fiction, a transmission from the timeless self to the self entangled in time.
It bends form… It speaks in riddles not to confuse, but to awaken the sleeper within.
It is raw, rhythmic, chaotic at moments, clear in flashes, like the dream before the dawn where truth and illusion merge into one deeper awareness.
It calls to the seeker, the wanderer, the half awake soul who senses that something is amiss… that the surface of this life hides a far deeper architecture.
It speaks of choices made across lifetimes, battles waged beyond the visible, and the persistent invitation to return to the source of all things: love.
Let this be a mirror… Let it challenge, stir, and ultimately call you back to the divine thread that runs through all being.
Lovine`s Awe: The Final Choice
For many incarnations we prepared for this current one, our memory has been erased, so we cannot remember we have been here far too long.
Played in this playground, a lot of new facets about ourselves we might have found.
With the goal in the heart to return to our home, out of this 3 dimensional physical war zone.
Next cycle will be another 26.000 years, maybe less, if you are being blessed.
Everything you have learned will be forgotten, you will find yourself in a loop even more rotten.
As a cyborg, vaccinated and artificial, 5 G in the smart city, where the need of love is nothing but a pity.
A world where AI and Terminator rule, and everything is cruel.
Far too few have shown potential, were unable to change their life and do the work that is essential.
Maybe there will be another ending, a group ascending.
If we figure it out and switch off the light, end this love and evil fight.
This one powerful force, the omnipotence of love.
Don’t search for it in church, don’t pray to it in urge.
Don’t try to find it in any religion, which might be dark science fiction.
Rather find this spark, the way to illumination on which you can embark.
You connect through your heart and loving deeds, and care for the ones in needs.
Look at this place, all rotten, where true values have been forgotten.
Where all that counts is your look, and your cash book.
Pretending you are good, we see all, and we might take a more precise look.
Where a good heart has no meaning at all, and the false values might lead to one`s fall.
Where the values of the dark are on the rise, the wolf in sheep`s clothing as a disguise.
May this poem be a warm heads-up for you, to listen to the light-being crew.
Be kindly reminded, that you are an open book, upon illusionary „death” or even while still “alive”, you will be forced to take a look.
(One needs to change “death” and “alive” around, a new realistic truth we have found.)
In the astral realm all is known, when the time is right, you will be shown.
Your judgement day will come, and you will be presented your “sum”.
When you fought on the side of the “the others” for too long, and your support for the dark has been too strong.
One day you will pay for all evil you have done, so love is the better choice in the long run.
Put your behaviour right in the now, and make an honesty, decency, love and peace vow.
Turn around, it is never/maybe too late, to decide on a different fate.
Please decide for love, and rise above.
The choice between the light and the dark, the choice between the omnipotence of love and the invisible shark.
The choice on which side of the fence to reside, the choice of becoming darker or to shine bright.
The choice between returning to loving source with fame, the choice of falling forever in shame.
The choice of returning to loving source, rejoicing your sisters and brothers, the choice of serving the beasts, let’s call them “the others”.
The choice of stabbing and fighting your own kind, the choice of too many evil contracts you have signed.
The choice was in this lifetime of fulfillment now, what has been your choice, the honesty and decency vow?
Maybe it is not too late, and you can decide on a different fate.
There lies a realm seldom seen but deeply felt… the realm of the spirit’s unseen battles.
Here, pain is not just an affliction, but a sacred teacher.
Wounds become gateways to wisdom, and the fracture of the soul reveals the infinite capacity for healing and rebirth.
This Spiritual Art Fiction unfolds not merely as a story, but as a meditation on the profound mysteries of suffering, resilience, and transcendence.
As you move through these words, you are invited to reflect on the delicate dance between destruction and creation…
The eternal war waged within the hidden chambers of being…
And the quiet strength that rises from the ashes of despair.
Read with an open heart…
The Love Mission Part 4: The Unseen Torture
My suffering and torture lies so deep insight, but I trust one day it will be healed and be alright.
How many individuals are a target? Behind the illusionary holographic facet…..
Let’s look as an example at target number one, a decent lady who has done nothing wrong.
In this lifetime the golden mastress is brave, smart and strong, it’s been destiny in this time quality, all along.
You started your astral warfare already when she was a sweet, innocent baby, and even after a lifetime of being “enemy Nr 1”, she is standing up as a proud lady.
She is deeply injured and cries, endless golden tears running out of her eyes.
The degree of attacks have been insane, it constantly hurts, this physical and emotional pain.
How many accidents and attempts on her life do we count? How many times in hospital has she been found?
Your servants` sword stabbed her in the head, at first she thought she was physically dead.
You made sure her spiritual love does not care for her any longer, but his astral true essence, full of love for her, made her even stronger, creating incredible spiritual and physical creative wonder.
Lifelong, you tried to destroy her and rip her apart, but you did not succeed in taking her determination and love in her heart.
Her essence is fragmented, but she picks herself up bit by bit, its been a severe challenge, this is what she does admit.
The golden mastress thanks you from the bottom of her heart, because your constant warfare made her golden sword so sharp.
Your warfare taught her everything there is to know, so that she can dominantly handle this evil freak show.
Darkness, you therefore digged your own grave, while the golden mastress is full of faith.
She is holding the “ring of power” in her hand, standing at the fire, ready to drop it, and no astral army of yours will stop it.
She re-named it to “ring of love”, and suddenly it shines bright, it’s a tribute to the ones she loves, says Madame White.
Have you ever found yourself saying, “I’m so tired, but I got enough sleep,” or “I just don’t feel like myself lately”?
If so, you’re not alone.
Many people experience persistent low energy or mood swings, even while making efforts to live a healthy lifestyle.
What most don’t realize is that energy and emotional stability aren’t just about caffeine, sleep, or willpower.
They’re deeply rooted in your internal systems, your hormones, gut health, nervous system, nutrient levels, toxic load, and even your daily rhythms.
The good news is there’s a holistic way to restore your energy and lift your mood, one that addresses the root causes and nurtures your body and mind from the inside out.
A Holistic Perspective on Energy and Mood:
Your body isn’t a machine, it’s an ecosystem… and everything is interconnected.
When you feel drained, moody, anxious, or just off, it’s not simply “in your head.”
These symptoms are signals from your body that something is out of balance.
The cause might be unstable blood sugar, nutritional deficiencies, toxin buildup, hormonal shifts, or chronic stress.
Instead of masking these symptoms with quick fixes, a holistic approach helps you explore where the imbalance originates, and how to bring your body back into alignment, naturally and sustainably.
7 Root Causes of Low Energy and Mood Swings:
1. Blood Sugar Instability
One of the most common contributors to fatigue and emotional instability is blood sugar instability.
When your blood sugar spikes and crashes, it can cause irritability, anxiety, cravings, and that familiar midday energy slump.
Balancing blood sugar through meals that include protein, fiber, healthy fats, and whole food carbohydrates can help regulate your energy and mood.
Eating every 3 to 4 hours and avoiding sugary snacks also plays a vital role in stabilizing these fluctuations.
2. Chronic Stress and High Cortisol
Another major factor is chronic stress.
When your body remains in fight or flight mode, your adrenal glands become overworked, resulting in fatigue, brain fog, and hormonal imbalances.
Stress also disrupts sleep and weakens the immune system.
Incorporating daily restorative practices (such as breathwork, nature walks, journaling, or nervous system regulation techniques) can help recalibrate your stress response and replenish your energy.
3. Poor Sleep Hygiene
Sleep, or rather poor sleep hygiene, has a powerful effect on your mood and vitality.
It’s not just about getting enough hours of rest, it’s about the quality of that rest.
Sleep influences everything from hormonal function and brain health to immunity and emotional resilience.
Supporting your sleep by maintaining a consistent sleep schedule, limiting screen time before bed, and creating a calming nighttime routine (using tools like magnesium, herbal teas, or red light therapy) can make a world of difference.
4. Nutrient Deficiencies
Nutrient deficiencies are another root cause often overlooked.
Low levels of key nutrients such as magnesium, B vitamins, iron, Omega 3 fatty acids, and vitamin D can leave you feeling emotionally unstable and physically drained.
Eating a nutrient rich, anti inflammatory diet, and supplementing based on personal needs and professional testing, can provide the foundational support your body craves.
5. Hormonal Imbalances
Hormonal imbalances are deeply intertwined with energy and emotional health.
When cortisol, estrogen, progesterone, thyroid hormones, or insulin are out of sync, it can disrupt your sense of vitality and emotional equilibrium.
A balanced approach that includes blood sugar regulation, stress reduction, liver support, and gut healing can help bring your hormones back into harmony.
Functional hormone testing may also uncover deeper issues that need attention.
6. Gut Health
Your gut health plays a surprisingly powerful role in your mental and emotional well being.
Through the gut brain axis, an inflamed or imbalanced gut can manifest as anxiety, depression, brain fog, or low energy.
Focusing on whole foods, reducing inflammatory triggers (like gluten, dairy, and sugar), and incorporating fermented foods, prebiotics, and probiotics can begin to repair and strengthen the gut lining, leading to more stable energy and mood.
7. Toxin Exposure
Lastly, consider the impact of toxin exposure.
We are surrounded daily by chemicals in our food, water, air, and personal care products.
These toxins can burden the liver, disrupt hormones, and affect the nervous system.
Switching to cleaner, non toxic products, filtering your water, and supporting your detox pathways with nutrient dense foods and gentle movement can help your body eliminate toxins more efficiently.
Seasonal detox protocols may also provide a helpful reset.
7 Daily Practices to Elevate Energy and Mood:
1. Start Your Day with Sunlight
Begin your morning by exposing yourself to natural sunlight.
This simple act helps regulate your circadian rhythm, boost vitamin D levels, and support healthy hormone production.
It sets the tone for sustained energy and emotional clarity throughout the day.
2. Ground Yourself Daily
Grounding (walking barefoot on natural surfaces like grass, soil, or sand) can help discharge built up stress and recalibrate your nervous system.
It reconnects you with the Earth’s natural frequencies and can leave you feeling more centered, present, and calm.
3. Drink Mineral Rich Water
Hydration isn’t just about drinking water, it’s about the right kind of water.
Mineral rich water helps fuel your cells, supports detoxification, and keeps your energy levels steady.
Consider adding trace mineral drops or a pinch of sea salt to your water for an extra boost.
4. Breathe Deeply
In moments of stress or overwhelm, deep, conscious breathing acts as a reset button for your nervous system.
It shifts you out of fight or flight mode and into a state of rest and repair, calming your mind and restoring emotional balance within minutes.
5. Create Joyful Rituals
Joy is a powerful energy booster. Build small, uplifting rituals into your daily routine, whether it’s dancing to your favorite song, laughing with a loved one, painting, cooking, or simply being playful.
These moments feed your soul and elevate your emotional frequency.
6. Move Your Body Mindfully
Movement should be a celebration, not a punishment.
Rather than exercising to burn calories, move to release tension, unlock energy, and enhance circulation.
Yoga, stretching, dancing, walking, or any form of intentional movement can help create flow in your body and mind.
7. Supplement Strategically
Instead of guessing what your body needs, work with a functional practitioner or use proper testing to guide your supplementation.
Targeted support (like magnesium for the nervous system or adaptogens for stress) can make a big difference when used wisely and intentionally.
Your Body Knows the Way Back:
Low energy and emotional turbulence don’t mean something is wrong with you…
They simply mean your body is speaking to you, asking for deeper support, nourishment, or rest.
When you begin listening to those signals and responding with care and consistency, true healing can begin.
You don’t need to rely on caffeine, willpower, or band-aid solutions.
You need alignment, with your body, your rhythms, and your needs.
Energy is your birthright.
Joy is your natural state.
And your body remembers how to return to both, if you’re willing to listen.
What if love transcended lifetimes, language, and logic?
What if two souls were destined to meet again and again, beyond the veil of illusion, beyond the constraints of the physical world?
This Spiritual Art Fiction is a heartfelt expression of such a journey: a divine entanglement of spirit and soul, where love is not merely felt… it is remembered, lived, and written in golden rain.
Set against the mystical backdrop of the French Atlantique coast, it weaves the emotional reality of reunion, separation, longing, and spiritual intimacy between two beings who have loved across dimensions.
Through evocative words and raw vulnerability, this piece invites you to witness what happens when love awakens in the astral, when essence kisses essence, and when destiny knocks… not on the door of reason, but on the chambers of the heart.
Let your soul feel its way through the lines.
Let your heart remember…
Lost in Illusion Part 4: Astral Pleasure
Destiny brought me to France, to give a very special spirit there a chance.
I felt into my timeline, to get an idea of the possible future to be mine.
I would have one last man in my current life, that it will be one last time “husband and wife”.
One can never be ready, but I tried to stay steady.
To trust my intuition, while awaiting the love mission.
I did not search, but I found, when I least expected, very close by, just around.
The man who shall be my little king, under my golden wing.
The hero on my side, in deep, unconditional love allied.
We had spent many other physical lifetimes together, and had planned after “death” to continue our love forever.
When I saw your smile for the first time my world stood still, I could hardly rest anymore, needed a relaxing pill.
I never had experienced this degree of tender love before, I learned what it means to purely adore.
I turned shy and was unable to speak, the dynamic between us was so deep.
We are having issues to find our way together in the physical illusion, while in reality we are having an intensive love fusion.
I am your love, your lady only in reality, but not in the physical illusion, while you prefer to live in the illusion, in physical confusion.
In the physical I tried to win your attention, but that only caused tension.
With this book I am trying to express my endless love as well as sadness and pain, with a broken umbrella in the golden rain.
To express my never dying hope, that we figure it all out and we can cope.
I desire to share what is true love between souls, far away from any physical roles.
I created miracles along the way, here at the French Atlantique bay.
To share this very special love story, that deserves the golden glory.
“Oh my love, you fell so deep, you are asleep.
You are so superficial and let astray, unable to see and find your way.
You forsake us, not even willing to see us nor discuss.
You cannot feel it deep down your heart, I beg, please awaken, my beloved sweetheart!”
In reality you kissed me dear, in illusion there is only fear.
In reality you make me smile, in illusion it is only a cry.
In reality you give me all I could possible need, in illusion there is nothing, not even a feed.
In reality we have only just begun, in illusion nothing is being said and done.
In reality there is nothing that hurts, in illusion I am bruised by all the unspoken words.
In reality you beg me to fight, in illusion my heart pain is too tight.
In reality I decided you to be my first choice, in illusion when I stand in front of you, I don’t even have a voice.
In reality I trusted you would be up for this task, in illusion you prefer to continue to wear this physical mask.
In reality you signed to be on our side, in illusion this is what you have denied.
In reality our love is pure and strong, in illusion we don’t know where we belong.
In reality you proposed and asked for my hand, in illusion there is a lot yet to understand.
In reality you ask me for one last dance, in illusion there will be this chance.
In reality we are all that we need, in illusion maybe there is a seed.
In reality it is your pre-ordained destiny at this time, in illusion trust it and it will be fine.
“Both of you don’t share a language and it is difficult to understand, this is not how it was planned.
Stephanie, should you not be fluent in French by now? You have all the know-how.
You were too busy to learn, so now communication issues is what you earn.
My son, what about your English skills from school? Oh well, you have to find another communication tool.
Instead, speak the language of the heart without words, like singing love birds.”
So, it was spiritual love at “first sight”, I am going to be honest here, alright?
But no, the love was already deep within, but let me begin…
It was the reunion of long time loving spirit souls, that had clearly long-term defined goals.
On how to live in this lifeline and beyond, as a foundation this incredible, endless heart to heart love bond.
Two spirits that for so long waited to physically re-unite, in the storm of the good and evil fight.
After I met you first, I was under confusion, while we slowly started to approach each other and began the energetic fusion.
The 2nd time I saw you, your essence opened my car`s door and kissed my hand, while your body stood further away smiling, down there in the golden sand.
My spirit likes to communicate with me with the help of a song, to sing its melody to guide me along.
It was “Endless love” and it took me a while to understand, it was the start of something I could have never planned.
It was difficult to understand the significance of it all back then, I had to re-arrange my being and feelings, once again.
Let me speak about the pure love between our spirit souls, the essence of us defined their own unique goals.
My body and our spirits worked together to win your physical heart, one try was all of this spiritual art.
First we had to sort things in our physical life to prepare, affairs that needed clearance to be fair.
After 3 months our spirits started to actively come together, with the goal to rest in love forever.
What I started to experience was totally new, I was overwhelmed, oh if I only knew….
In the astral it took one week to update our unique spiritual contract, to find the right heart to heart tact.
I was told that our spirits are both full of temperament and passion, different and at the same time similar, but with wild compassion.
I felt your energy in my arm day and night, you said you loved my shining light.
I can sometimes understand our astral conversations, despite being French-German, two different nations.
Your essence is the perfect partner I have always been looking for, I cannot put into words how much I adore…
…the deep trust and intimate connection, this pure heart to heart affection.
I started to feel this love bomb in the area of my heart so strong, I knew deep within where I belong.
I realized my power and force to expand… all along the Atlantique sand.
What happened now I did not know before, it opened a complete new door.
Your essence started to engage with me in a sexual way, while your physical body was a few kilometres away.
I have been having the best sex of my life, I was happy, content and felt alive.
You, knowing me so incredibly well, in comfort of your astral smell.
In your arms I felt protected and eased, the burden that I carry appeased.
In April I felt your first astral kiss while riding in the car, I never felt this kind of love before, you were my star.
I left the area for 3 months and said bye-bye, I still had difficulties to talk to you, still being so shy.
When I stood in front of you, our bodies were like magnets attracting each other, and there was this tender trust between one another.
In the physical you are so beautiful and sweet, with your orange-brown eyes, so neat.
I was explained that it was the best if I left for a while, to sort certain things out and to walk a development mile.
When we left in the car, your essence was there to wave goodbye, there was so much cry.
We were 4 hours away, but that did not stop your spirit to find its way…
…to be with its lady and to come along, because this is where you belong.
Still the separation was so hard and there was this endless pain, and out of my eyes the tears were running, golden rain.
We made spiritual love every day in deep affection, spirits uniting in perfection.
I started to have symptoms to have a baby, this cannot be real, maybe?
I felt the baby spirit on my side, a boy that last year had peacefully died.
In the physical we started to speak on a chat, I told you about our new baby cat.
This monumentum of progress and hope did not last, you stopped talking to me very fast.
Because I was too “shy”, you did not give me a chance to properly “apply”.
I herewith deny, I am the opposite of being “shy”!
Maybe you need to check upon your perception, it might need some correction.
Your spirit was devastated and begged me to fight, “Please show him your light and shine bright!”
I wrote my first poem for you, and I hoped that you grew.
My first poem was published on a well-known website, and suddenly I was in the spotlight.
On the chat you blocked me… you were not interested to see…
At the same time I was pushed into quickly progressing in my love mission, that was so much pressure, in addition.
Your spirit´s love got me through this hard time, and I continued to write the next rhyme.
I had the most perfect relationship with your essence, an evanescence…
….of all this illusion out there, all this meaningless affair.
Your spirit pleased me every day, also trying to support me in every possible way.
I could clearly feel your erection, male energy in perfection.
One day I sat in the cinema on my seat, your essence was next to me, holding my hand the whole time, that was so sweet.
Also, sitting with your essence next to me in the car, while being physically away so far.
I have so much of your energy deep within, that we look more akin.
My eyes have now a different shape, as if I was a different race.
I learned the strongest form of love is taking place when two spirits are together, when within their heart they create their own constant sunshine weather.
When the focus is far beyond of what we grasp and know, this is what I am trying to show.
I wanted to know more, I was told we were happy lovers in other lifetimes before.
There is this strong connection, loving devotion in perfection.
With a higher purpose in place, so precious, for us to welcome and to embrace.
On the 28th of July 2023 I felt it was a special day, it is so weird, I can hardly express myself and say.
It was our engagement day and our spirits promising eternal love, that truly originates from above.
And yes, this was new to me and it was a shock and still is, it needed scrutiny and an analysis.
Our spirits counted the days to return, and it was time for you to learn…
Also, I had so much on my plate, my fate…
But I am strong, I was prepared for this all along.
When we entered town, I felt your frown.
I am sure you knew by intuition, that there was recognition.
Of what was to come, while I was missing a welcome song.
In the physical you denied to see me or to talk, even unwilling to take a beach walk.
I clearly told you I loved you from the bottom of my heart, now that you reading this, you might understand why, my sweetheart.
When I saw you in the physical, you were under shock, and I understood why, you were so blocked.
You chose to solve this by running away, along the Atlantique bay.
You told me all I never wanted to hear, you made it really clear.
“Desolé” was all I heard, did you not know another word?
How many “desolé” do we count? Look at my account…
…the account of love, which has dropped in value, why don’t you get to know me in the physical and re-value?
You made it very clear, I was nothing you wanted in your life, that you already have a potential “wife”.
My spirit told me that even in the physical you loved me all along, having issues to see, running away, but eventually singing a French love song.
If you are able to re-define, and to re-align.
I was in conflict and did not know what to do, I never walked in this kind of shoe.
Your words, unspoken and later out-spoken, hurt me bad, I lost trust and I am so endlessly sad.
Your spirit has been emotionally destroyed, and also annoyed…
…about how you could hurt its eternal lady so much, while it was hoping for the first physical kiss and touch.
Towards me your spirit is ashamed, our physical dreams, all maimed.
It feels guild as it was unable to guide you in the right way, instead it could not avoid that you were led astray.
I wonder how can I live close to you and feel you all the time, “don’t worry Stephanie, one day you will be fine.”
“You cannot run away from the pain, it will come and find you, this golden rain”.
“His essence will be where you are, it does not matter, near of far”.
