What if love transcended lifetimes, language, and logic?
What if two souls were destined to meet again and again, beyond the veil of illusion, beyond the constraints of the physical world?
This Spiritual Art Fiction is a heartfelt expression of such a journey: a divine entanglement of spirit and soul, where love is not merely felt… it is remembered, lived, and written in golden rain.
Set against the mystical backdrop of the French Atlantique coast, it weaves the emotional reality of reunion, separation, longing, and spiritual intimacy between two beings who have loved across dimensions.
Through evocative words and raw vulnerability, this piece invites you to witness what happens when love awakens in the astral, when essence kisses essence, and when destiny knocks… not on the door of reason, but on the chambers of the heart.
Let your soul feel its way through the lines.
Let your heart remember…
Destiny brought me to France,
to give a very special spirit there a chance.
I felt into my timeline,
to get an idea of the possible future to be mine.
I would have one last man in my current life,
that it will be one last time “husband and wife”.
One can never be ready,
but I tried to stay steady.
To trust my intuition,
while awaiting the love mission.
I did not search, but I found,
when I least expected, very close by, just around.
The man who shall be my little king,
under my golden wing.
The hero on my side,
in deep, unconditional love allied.
We had spent many other physical lifetimes together,
and had planned after “death” to continue our love forever.
When I saw your smile for the first time my world stood still,
I could hardly rest anymore, needed a relaxing pill.
I never had experienced this degree of tender love before,
I learned what it means to purely adore.
I turned shy and was unable to speak,
the dynamic between us was so deep.
We are having issues to find our way together in the physical illusion,
while in reality we are having an intensive love fusion.
I am your love, your lady only in reality, but not in the physical illusion,
while you prefer to live in the illusion, in physical confusion.
In the physical I tried to win your attention,
but that only caused tension.
With this book I am trying to express my endless love as well as sadness and pain,
with a broken umbrella in the golden rain.
To express my never dying hope,
that we figure it all out and we can cope.
I desire to share what is true love between souls,
far away from any physical roles.
I created miracles along the way,
here at the French Atlantique bay.
To share this very special love story,
that deserves the golden glory.
“Oh my love, you fell so deep,
you are asleep.
You are so superficial and let astray,
unable to see and find your way.
You forsake us,
not even willing to see us nor discuss.
You cannot feel it deep down your heart,
I beg, please awaken, my beloved sweetheart!”
In reality you kissed me dear,
in illusion there is only fear.
In reality you make me smile,
in illusion it is only a cry.
In reality you give me all I could possible need,
in illusion there is nothing, not even a feed.
In reality we have only just begun,
in illusion nothing is being said and done.
In reality there is nothing that hurts,
in illusion I am bruised by all the unspoken words.
In reality you beg me to fight,
in illusion my heart pain is too tight.
In reality I decided you to be my first choice,
in illusion when I stand in front of you, I don’t even have a voice.
In reality I trusted you would be up for this task,
in illusion you prefer to continue to wear this physical mask.
In reality you signed to be on our side,
in illusion this is what you have denied.
In reality our love is pure and strong,
in illusion we don’t know where we belong.
In reality you proposed and asked for my hand,
in illusion there is a lot yet to understand.
In reality you ask me for one last dance,
in illusion there will be this chance.
In reality we are all that we need,
in illusion maybe there is a seed.
In reality it is your pre-ordained destiny at this time,
in illusion trust it and it will be fine.
“Both of you don’t share a language and it is difficult to understand,
this is not how it was planned.
Stephanie, should you not be fluent in French by now?
You have all the know-how.
You were too busy to learn,
so now communication issues is what you earn.
My son, what about your English skills from school?
Oh well, you have to find another communication tool.
Instead, speak the language of the heart without words,
like singing love birds.”
So, it was spiritual love at “first sight”,
I am going to be honest here, alright?
But no, the love was already deep within,
but let me begin…
It was the reunion of long time loving spirit souls,
that had clearly long-term defined goals.
On how to live in this lifeline and beyond,
as a foundation this incredible, endless heart to heart love bond.
Two spirits that for so long waited to physically re-unite,
in the storm of the good and evil fight.
After I met you first, I was under confusion,
while we slowly started to approach each other and began the energetic fusion.
The 2nd time I saw you, your essence opened my car`s door and kissed my hand,
while your body stood further away smiling, down there in the golden sand.
My spirit likes to communicate with me with the help of a song,
to sing its melody to guide me along.
It was “Endless love” and it took me a while to understand,
it was the start of something I could have never planned.
It was difficult to understand the significance of it all back then,
I had to re-arrange my being and feelings, once again.
Let me speak about the pure love between our spirit souls,
the essence of us defined their own unique goals.
My body and our spirits worked together to win your physical heart,
one try was all of this spiritual art.
First we had to sort things in our physical life to prepare,
affairs that needed clearance to be fair.
After 3 months our spirits started to actively come together,
with the goal to rest in love forever.
What I started to experience was totally new,
I was overwhelmed, oh if I only knew….
In the astral it took one week to update our unique spiritual contract,
to find the right heart to heart tact.
I was told that our spirits are both full of temperament and passion,
different and at the same time similar, but with wild compassion.
I felt your energy in my arm day and night,
you said you loved my shining light.
I can sometimes understand our astral conversations,
despite being French-German, two different nations.
Your essence is the perfect partner I have always been looking for,
I cannot put into words how much I adore…
…the deep trust and intimate connection,
this pure heart to heart affection.
I started to feel this love bomb in the area of my heart so strong,
I knew deep within where I belong.
I realized my power and force to expand…
all along the Atlantique sand.
What happened now I did not know before,
it opened a complete new door.
Your essence started to engage with me in a sexual way,
while your physical body was a few kilometres away.
I have been having the best sex of my life,
I was happy, content and felt alive.
You, knowing me so incredibly well,
in comfort of your astral smell.
In your arms I felt protected and eased,
the burden that I carry appeased.
In April I felt your first astral kiss while riding in the car,
I never felt this kind of love before, you were my star.
I left the area for 3 months and said bye-bye,
I still had difficulties to talk to you, still being so shy.
When I stood in front of you, our bodies were like magnets attracting each other,
and there was this tender trust between one another.
In the physical you are so beautiful and sweet,
with your orange-brown eyes, so neat.
I was explained that it was the best if I left for a while,
to sort certain things out and to walk a development mile.
When we left in the car, your essence was there to wave goodbye,
there was so much cry.
We were 4 hours away,
but that did not stop your spirit to find its way…
…to be with its lady and to come along,
because this is where you belong.
Still the separation was so hard and there was this endless pain,
and out of my eyes the tears were running, golden rain.
We made spiritual love every day in deep affection,
spirits uniting in perfection.
I started to have symptoms to have a baby,
this cannot be real, maybe?
I felt the baby spirit on my side,
a boy that last year had peacefully died.
In the physical we started to speak on a chat,
I told you about our new baby cat.
This monumentum of progress and hope did not last,
you stopped talking to me very fast.
Because I was too “shy”,
you did not give me a chance to properly “apply”.
I herewith deny,
I am the opposite of being “shy”!
Maybe you need to check upon your perception,
it might need some correction.
Your spirit was devastated and begged me to fight,
“Please show him your light and shine bright!”
I wrote my first poem for you,
and I hoped that you grew.
My first poem was published on a well-known website,
and suddenly I was in the spotlight.
On the chat you blocked me…
you were not interested to see…
At the same time I was pushed into quickly progressing in my love mission,
that was so much pressure, in addition.
Your spirit´s love got me through this hard time,
and I continued to write the next rhyme.
I had the most perfect relationship with your essence,
an evanescence…
….of all this illusion out there,
all this meaningless affair.
Your spirit pleased me every day,
also trying to support me in every possible way.
I could clearly feel your erection,
male energy in perfection.
One day I sat in the cinema on my seat,
your essence was next to me, holding my hand the whole time, that was so sweet.
Also, sitting with your essence next to me in the car,
while being physically away so far.
I have so much of your energy deep within,
that we look more akin.
My eyes have now a different shape,
as if I was a different race.
I learned the strongest form of love is taking place when two spirits are together,
when within their heart they create their own constant sunshine weather.
When the focus is far beyond of what we grasp and know,
this is what I am trying to show.
I wanted to know more,
I was told we were happy lovers in other lifetimes before.
There is this strong connection,
loving devotion in perfection.
With a higher purpose in place,
so precious, for us to welcome and to embrace.
On the 28th of July 2023 I felt it was a special day,
it is so weird, I can hardly express myself and say.
It was our engagement day and our spirits promising eternal love,
that truly originates from above.
And yes, this was new to me and it was a shock and still is,
it needed scrutiny and an analysis.
Our spirits counted the days to return,
and it was time for you to learn…
Also, I had so much on my plate,
my fate…
But I am strong,
I was prepared for this all along.
When we entered town,
I felt your frown.
I am sure you knew by intuition,
that there was recognition.
Of what was to come,
while I was missing a welcome song.
In the physical you denied to see me or to talk,
even unwilling to take a beach walk.
I clearly told you I loved you from the bottom of my heart,
now that you reading this, you might understand why, my sweetheart.
When I saw you in the physical, you were under shock,
and I understood why, you were so blocked.
You chose to solve this by running away,
along the Atlantique bay.
You told me all I never wanted to hear,
you made it really clear.
“Desolé” was all I heard,
did you not know another word?
How many “desolé” do we count?
Look at my account…
…the account of love, which has dropped in value,
why don’t you get to know me in the physical and re-value?
You made it very clear, I was nothing you wanted in your life,
that you already have a potential “wife”.
My spirit told me that even in the physical you loved me all along,
having issues to see, running away, but eventually singing a French love song.
If you are able to re-define,
and to re-align.
I was in conflict and did not know what to do,
I never walked in this kind of shoe.
Your words, unspoken and later out-spoken, hurt me bad,
I lost trust and I am so endlessly sad.
Your spirit has been emotionally destroyed,
and also annoyed…
…about how you could hurt its eternal lady so much,
while it was hoping for the first physical kiss and touch.
Towards me your spirit is ashamed,
our physical dreams, all maimed.
It feels guild as it was unable to guide you in the right way,
instead it could not avoid that you were led astray.
I wonder how can I live close to you and feel you all the time,
“don’t worry Stephanie, one day you will be fine.”
“You cannot run away from the pain,
it will come and find you, this golden rain”.
“His essence will be where you are,
it does not matter, near of far”.
“This spiritual love is real,
can you not feel?”
Spirit of White
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